I haven’t cut in at least two months..

I’m so proud of myself! Although i must say the past week or two has been a bit of a struggle.. trying to avoid temptation is a lot harder when you won’t let yourself give in. It’s easy to hurt yourself, but the struggle will be worth it in the end. There will always be a part of me that wants to self-harm, and maybe i doubt myself a little on not cutting anymore, but for now.. i’m okay. ^-^ I just hope that this stays.

It’s my birthday guys.

<3

~ about the blogger- gonna do one.

bollywoodsunshine:

ABOUT ME

► Name ➔ Sarah
► Will you answer all questions truthfully ➔ Well what else is there?
► Are you single ➔  No. ;D
► Are you happy ➔ For the moment, yes.
► Are you Italian ➔  Maybe.

► Are you German ➔ Prolly.
► Are you Asian ➔ Not at all..
► Are you angry? ➔ Momentarily, no, but usually, yes.

► Are you Irish ➔ Yus.
► Are your parents still married ➔ No.

TEN FACTS
► Birth Place ➔ North Carolina
► Hair Color ➔ Blonde, red, brown
► Eye Color ➔ Blue.
► Birthday ➔ Feb 5th.
► Mood ➔ Content
► Gender ➔ Woman
► Lefty or Righty ➔ Righty
► Summer or winter ➔ Summer
► Morning or afternoon ➔ Morning

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE 
► Are you in love ➔ No.
► Do you believe in love at first sight  ➔ Erm.. No?
► Who ended your last relationship ➔  Him
► Have you ever broken someone’s heart ➔ Unfortunately.
► Are you afraid of commitments ➔ Slightly
► Have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔  Always! 
► Have you ever had a secret admirer ➔ Well it wouldn’t be a secret now would it?
► Have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ Yes.

TEN CHOICES

► Love or lust ➔ Love
► Lemonade or iced tea ➔ Lemonade.
► Cats or Dogs ➔ Cats
► A few best friends or many regular friends ➔ A few best.
► Television or internet ➔ Internet
► Pepsi or Coke ➔ Pepsi
► Wild night out or romantic night in ➔  Neither? ._.

► Day or night ➔ Night

► IM or Phone ➔ IM

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
► Been caught sneaking out ➔ Never had to sneak out, so no.
► Fallen down/up the stairs ➔ Multiple times, mostly up.. 
► White water rafted ➔ No, want badly.
► Finished an entire jawbreaker ➔ which size but yes. 
► Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? ➔ Yes. ._.
► Prank called a store ➔ Yus.
► Skipped school ➔ >:] yes.
► Wanted to disappear ➔ Of course.

TEN PREFERENCES 
► Smile or eyes ➔ Eyes
► Light or dark hair ➔ light?
► Fat or skinny ➔ doesn’t matter.
► Shorter or Taller ➔ Taller than me. 
► Intelligence or Attraction ➔ Well you kinda have to have both otherwise you don’t have my attention. ._.

► Hook-up or Relationship
 ➔ Relationship.
► Funny and poor OR rich and serious ➔ Funny and poor. Money is not a big deal to me.

ABOUT ME
► Last Phone Call ➔ to the other subway so they could give my subway what we needed.
► Last phone call you received ➔ Mom to get me from someones house.
► Last person you hung out with ➔ My love. <3
► Last thing you ate ➔ Homemade cupcakes. 
► Last thing you drank ➔ Mountain Dew. 
► Last site you went to ➔ Tumblr
► Last place you were ➔ Work.

RELATIONSHIPS
► Are you in a committed relationship 
 Yes.

► When was your last relationship ➔ Well my previous relationship ended a few months ago..

► Do you still love them ➔ Yes.

FAMILY

► Do you and your family get along  ➔ My family is a little twisted..
► Would you say you have a “messed up life” ➔ It’s not all screwed..
► Have you ever run away from home ➔ No.
► Have you ever gotten kicked out ➔ No.
► If so, how long ➔ See above.

FRIENDS

► Do you secretly hate one of your friends ➔ Sometimes I secretly hate all of my friends, so yes?
► Do you consider all of your friends good friends ➔ Most if not all.
► Who are/is your best friend(s) ➔ Baylee Shadduck is my very best friend. 
► Who knows everything about you ➔ B. 

You’ve broken me.

A secret.

No one but me knows the reason i started cutting. And here’s the truth.

I got dared to cut the first time.. so I did. I proved to her I would do it. I did it.. and it wasn’t good enough.. so I cut more and deeper. Now.. it runs my life. 

(Source: lousella)

Just because it’s a holiday doesn’t mean my problems go away.